dance dance dance

i love chestnuts. they're wonderful. they're warm in the tummy when roasted in the ooohven. also, it's so healthy. did you know that it has the same ascorbic acid, or vitamin C as its same weight in a lemon. imagine that. it ain't even sour.

here are other fascinating stuff about chestnuts besides being fantalicious:
"As opposed to most other nuts, chestnuts have a high water content and very little oil, thus making them virtually fat free. They are high in complex carbohydrates, contain high quality protein comparable to eggs, are gluten free, cholesterol free, and are very low in fat (1-2% while other nuts can be over 50% fat). Nutritionally, they are similar to brown rice and have been described as a grain that grows on a tree."

now dig this!
for every one ounce or 28 grams of these nuts, you'll get the corresponding calories:

macadamia - 210
hazelnuts - 180
pistachios - 179
cashews - 170
peanuts - 166
chestnuts - 54!!!

that means i could indulge thrice the amount of chestnuts before i consume the same amount of calories of one serving of other nuts! yey! yippee!! rejoice!
(not betraying my love for kasuy and pistachios, but this is an article about chestnuts. suri for them.)

mommy brings them home for everyone to glutton themselves, except for ahya who claims he doesn't like it as much - but he still eats 'em.
now give me that nut!

7:26 PM
at desktop lab.. here again after a really long while...

it's because of "because of you." i knew it was comin because of the song but i havta give it a listen. damn good song. but it's really a sad song. haha i eventually turned off the freakin radio midway the song 'cause..

"putang ina... sorry... oh my god... fuck... sorry..."

ayun, that's what i mumbled. this happened on my way to school ng 6pm, while driving all through p.florentino, left to lacson and until loyola street. at the back of my mind, i was wonderin if these truck people on my left and right and the pedestrians on the street could see me. i felt that they could here me - the pedestrians, that is - with the way they look. or maybe they're jst lookin' out for dear life. (good for them. so many damn people seem to want to die by walkin on the literally middle of the street than on the sidewalk! wondering "too far from the sidewalk" guilty as charged!)

it was a good one. actually i didnt think i was gonna cry but i did. good thing tho 'coz tensions were released so i still had the guts to talk to sibayan. it was good . right now, i'm actually happy.

inspite of the stuff people say about her, i actually like her. i only know of one other person on this earth who likes her as well - who'll even treat her out for lunch given a chance. haha

crying is purging. i think cryin is a good thing. don't tell anyone to stop. comfort them but dont stop them from lettin it out. people need to cry once in a while and let those welled up tears fall without breakin.

one year ago is just like today..

feel the breeze
riding munoz jeep and sto. domingo tricycle carrying my guitar
ersao at grace - pearl milk tea!! spicy squid
my varsity family
where me care bears?
music team.. let's sing sing sing
and snacks! food food food

my saturday routine a year ago
in tune with a purpose

damn

wala pa
mamaya na lang ulit

bout dat spillin da beans thing.. dont mind it..
just finished watching thomas crown affair

christmas wish and hope and buy and give list:
(besides the usual ipod, dslr, mac powerbook
i'm not really good at askin for things. usually il just imply that i need or want something but not ask for it straightforwardly. id wait to be offered or gift-ed...)

not in any particular order:
1. a nice guitar strap
2. chocolates - any.. preferably with nuts or anythin crunchy
3. nougat soft candies
4. unlimited supply of hot fresh chestnuts
5. DSL

hmmm what else? actually i cant think of anyother thing that i really want to wish for..hmm

6. my thesis? well that can't be bought
7. oh a new car.. civic needs some rest. achi and ahya still won't let me drive astra for some unreasonable reason - baka magkaroon ng bangga yung astra. nyek! ako pa! oh i wanna drive land cruiser hehe all the way to tagaytay!! yey
8. chickenjoy also or anythin fried chicken
9. cakes! i looove cakes..hmmm ube cake, mocha caramel - the one that have sweet crunchy sugar candies on top, chocolate moose, nythin sweet
10. sour cream pringles
11. lunch at le souffle - lamb chops!!!! and their bread.. (side note: im protesting their closing shop at ortigas!!! although its been a while already im still protesting!!!!!!)
12. cheese rings

hehe food i'm happy!

13. oh oh! i wantawant a big brother shirt.. please!!!
14. da CD's in my wish list
15. ahm.. a merienda at kopirito
16. an hour at soularium.. it's for free so tara na bilis..
17. ersao pearl milk tea. not so sweet please!!
18. a nice metal cigarette case would be really nice hehe
19. a hammock for the fourth floor - if u wanna hav an occular inspection to see da specs, ure very much welcome!
20. magic sing or a videoke gift cert with you.. mga prensters, com' on! ilang beses natin 'to ginusto!
21. ....

hmm... wat else, il jst keep adding whenever..

i don't want to marry my dad

*jumpin' jumpin'
*screaming with 0 volume



NENE WON!!!!





*500,000++ votes!!
i gave two. hihi

I really wish I joined Malate earlier than my last 4 terms in school. I wished I joined in my frosh or during my second year or even in my third year where schedule is much more free. But probably who I was then wouldn’t be ready for Malate. Oh well, even so.

I wish I have more time to get to know people and to share myself as well. I want to share their passion for creating and experiencing art and their company. The art people got me going back to the "art board." and naiingit ako dun sa mga nag-coconsult na poetry people - ako rin! hahaha. 

I feel like I’m not getting much out of my stay now, and I’m not giving much either. It’s a shame really. I hate being half-baked in this and in everything I involve myself. I’m like that rice Papito cooked for us in Boracay. He was cooking on electric stove. When he saw that it lacked water, he poured water and stirred it. He kept checking and opening the lid. He served it and I hated it. Until now, I could still feel the half-cooked rice in my mouth. Grains of cooked and hard half-cooked white rice sliding and swishing around my tongue, palette and teeth. I couldn’t stand it. After that, I didn’t eat rice for one week.

Now I’m starting to sound like a hopeless regretful dying person. Hahahaha. Nah.. There’s still time. I hope.

I’m at a loss,
I’m at a loss for words, I really want to say
I’m finding for myself
What can I do
When every road I travel leads me back to you
Instead of somewhere else
I apologize

Cause what I wanted to say
Never came out the way
I wanted it to, I wanted it to
Cause what I wanted to say
Only got in the way
I never meant to hurt you
But I didn’t have a clue

I’m just a girl
I’m just a girl in need of something better than
I’m finding for myself
You count the cost
For everything you gain there’s always something lost
You’re worth so much more
Listen to my heart whispering
I need you

Empty words cannot suffice
I’ve been runnin’ from what I know is right
When only Yours are words of life

-Tait

Dis-moi simplement si tu veux de moi
Quand tu partiras là-bas
Vers ces dunes sèches de sable et de vent
Cet océan jaune et blanc
Perdu dans le désert
Tu es perdu dans le désert
Montre-moi ma place sur ces pierres flammes
Pour que j'oublie tous jours d'avant
Pour que je protège ton corps et ton ame
Des mirages que tu attends
Perdu dans le désert
Si la poussière emporte tes réves de lumière
je serai ta lune, ton repère
Et si le soleil nous brule, je prierai qui tu voudras
Pour que tombe la neige au Sahara

alam mo mayroon akong pangarap sa buhay
sana matupad na
magda-drive ako hanggang Baguio
magda-drive ako hanggang Bicol
magda-drive ako hanggang Batangas
tapos magswi-swimming d'on sa beach
isasama ko ang girlfriend ko
isasama ko kahit sinong may gusto
kahit may kasama siyang aso
basta't meron siyang dalang sariling buto
magdadala ako ng pagkain
burger fries tapsilog at siopao
magda-drive ako hanggang Visayas
magda-drive ako hanggang sa Mindanao
magda-drive ako buong taon
magda-drive ako habang buhay
magda-drive ako hanggang buwan
please please lang turuan mo
akong magdrive
gusto kong matutong magdrive
gusto kong matutong magdrive
magdrive....drive
drive
magdrive...magdrive
drive

Talk to Me

There you are again
I see you all the time
We haven't really met yet,
But you know, I don't mind
'Cuz I think today's the day
I'm gonna go right up and say to you
Would it be alright
If I called you up sometime?

There you go again
I let you get away
At least I've got more time
To think of what I might say (like)
“Couldn't we be good” (or maybe)
“Don't you think that we should find
Some quiet little place where we'd make love all day?”

Come and talk to me
What are you waiting for
'Cuz I can see you passing every day and I'm always wanting more
Come and talk to me
What are you gonna do
'Cuz I can't seem to get the nerve to get off my own ass
And come and talk to you

You know I love the type
You look like you've been up all night
And yet somehow still look beautiful
You do it all at the same time
Whenever you walk by
You always look me in the eyes
And in that moment I know
the same thing's on your mind

It always seems to be that I let the good things pass by
Because I let my fear stop me (but not this time)

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you when we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannon ball
Where were you while we were getting high?

Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Some day you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky

Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannon ball
Where were you when we were getting high?

Cos people believe that they're
Gonna get away for the summer
But you and I, we live and die
The world's still spinning round
We don't know why
Why, why, why, why

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you when we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannon ball
Where were you while we were getting high?

How many special people change
How many lives are living strange
Where were you when we were getting high?
We were getting high
We were getting high
We were getting high
We were getting high

-champagne sueprnova, oasis

bertigious bertigo

when i hear "Vertigo," the first thing that comes into my mind is U2's video on their Vertigo song. the one with the black swirls. you can never go wrong with black swirls.

the next is kuya mark aranal. i think he has chronic vertigo if i remember correctly. now, that's tough.

now, when i hear vertigo, i remember myself now! spinning white ceilings and striped ivory white duvets. haay. i thought it'll get away after lunch but i guess it's lonely like me and wants to keep me company.

green is IN

im lovin it. my paborits are colored green. green tea frappe. buko pandan. my light green jacket. it's not as saturated.. (im not really good at adjectives. and because of photoshop im startin to describe colors with its factors of saturation, hue and lightness. hahaha) and lasalle! im starting to like my skul now. it's not that i hated it or something of that sort. i just wasnt conscious of me developing affections towards it. now, it's ok. its cool. it's a cool green school.
and ive met cool green people to go with it. hehehe

it used to be orange... hmm like saulee said, it's ahrange. ehehe arange sunsets at SJ hidden by rizal stadium - but it's still loverly. arange eberithin. now i think it's green's turn to shine. so fresh and so a-new. surf pine! hahaha

epiphanus epichondria:

there's really a thin line between giving up and letting go. right now, i'd prefer to say it's letting go. da atmosphere's my home. well it's da sky but it sounds too lofty for me now so.. basta as long as its not da floor. but then again, entropy and gravity like any laws of nature shall prevail.

floy said you can't love without passion and madness..

so where did all the passion go?
madness stayed though..

i blame it on you
for not showing me how
i dont know how to fight for anything except that i am right
i dont know how to show anything except apathy and i dont care
i dont know how to laugh, only when i see you broken
i can only give what money can buy

Sometimes fat with flower clouds
Often bleak and worry weary skies
Sometimes light with butterflies
Often wild and flickerflaming skies
Such is life on this mortal merry go round
Such is life on this mortal merry go round
Sometimes whirl o wing and windy
Golden tales, planetary skies
Often thick with mystery
Bittersweet temporary skies
Such is life on this mortal merry go round
Such is life on this mortal merry go round

-kinanta ni cynthia alexander

anak ng amapalaya! ewan ko!
walang pwede
maybe i should look for new friends
come on!! ako mag-drayb beach tayo

Hangin' round downtown by myself
And I had too much caffeine
And I was thinkin' 'bout myself
And then there she was
In double platform suede
Yeah there she was
Like disco lemonade
I smell sex and candy here
Who's that lounging in my chair
Who's that casting devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely is a dream
Mama this surely is a dream
Yeah mama this must be my dream

-marcy's playground

no blaming, justifying, complaining for 7 days!

"Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe."
-philippians 2:15-16

"But in everything give thanks for this is will of God in Christ Jesus for you."
-I Thessalonians 5:18

i'm gonna play the game to win..

i had an hour of bonding session with papito, trying to figure out what's wrong with our 0816 phone. it was cool

out of necessity, ive worned rags. literally. ive used that to wipe dirt and all already! rags, torn and all. though ive tried to get rid of them, my jammie jacket keep finding its way back to my closet. i used it.