dance dance dance

cheesiness melting

Let me in
to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

lift me up
just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the ground
see all come
you say your all right
but I get the strangest feeling
that you've gone away- you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

Don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted

-dishwalla

in relation to my previous post, what makes a person exciting? interesting? not boring? "what do i want when i want you," ika nga ni robert solomon.

everything's in relation to the "i" isnt it? we project ourselves to others.
everything's in relation to the "other" isnt it? we become conscious of ourselves because of others look.
what? what? tell me.

right now, i actually dont want anyone to read my entries. well, at least my latest ones. it feels so not me. im so much in flux dat i cant say dat "dat is me." da earlier posts, well, they were there long enough dat i could say "it's part of me," though not necessarily the me in the present.

so dont.

i got this insight from yesterday's "reflection" after our thing in the "blue" fields.

the difference between mediocrity and greatness. when you only think about yourself, you only do what's good enough. what's good enough for yourself. when you consider others in relation to your goal, you do more than enough. you do more than what's good enough for you. oh well, yea. oo nga. ive been selfish lately. well, what's wrong with that right? well, maybe il remain mediocre as a result. haha. well, the real great ones didnt work alone. the real great ones didnt onlyt think of themselves.

i think i just can't find within myself to "go for it". that i could do it. but when others is involved, i think, "heck, ive no choice." but syempre. you could do otherwise. it's jst with me it's like that. it doesnt mean i have no choice but i dont want to let others down. who want to let others down, right? so it gives a me more reason to do it. ika nga, it's not the how; it's the why.

right now, i dont know. i could jst say this and that that to involve more people in my goal. but i want to really mean it. but as of now, wala pa eh. i wanna mean it.

im "waiting for lightning," i guess, "a sign that it's time for a change."

gets ba?
anyways

but at times when i think about these from another's perspective. iniisip ko ang petty naman ng concerns ko.but maybe they really are. diba? there's more to life than this whining.

whining ba yun? anyways

i should go back to what i wrote on march 23

whatta wonderful world.

people won't care how much you know, until they know how much you care.

"it's foolish to think that the world will treat you nice because you are 'nice.'"

hey hey hey!

hola! im extremely tired. dont think if i still have da strength to type but anyways. i feel guilty though that im so energize when im at work. ojt, that is. coz when i get home biglang na low-batt. ganun pala yung feeling. imagine people going to makati everyday for a living! shux.

anywys, dont mind da earlier posts. i realize i will always have those moments when i ask myself whether i matter or not. now i know. it's when i isolate myself. when i look only at myself. now, i know im bigger! it's more than now. yes. i know il fall back down those depressing times again but i know il go past that din maski during thsoe times i dont think so. it sounds cliche like in the songs but sadness will end also. but being happy with the now is what matters and makes even sadness happy.

gets ba? nyways,

guess what also, for the first time...
i have someone in my banned list!

i ban this person from ever riding with me again! hahahah

really funny. wish i could tell you more. have to chat with a friend. im high right now. i wanna share it with you. i feel beautiful and actually just happy for being me. thanks