dance dance dance

yes, it's been a while since

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why don't i do it all out right? doesn't mean that i should do it the whole day... since i'm gonna do it anyway, right?

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i know some people whose life can be described by Ben Harper's song, "She's Only Happy in the Sun." Check out the lyrics. For a time, it would have described my life as well - i guess.

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inna, i've been thinking of seriously starting to film. i don't want to let all these material of our lives fade. got any? we can start producing even when we're miles apart. =p

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i just remembered a dream: i want to be famous.

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now i accept, yes, i need affirmation. i need to be liked. i need people to tell me i'm doing ok. no, that i did great. i love it when people tell me they love me. i want to know that i contributed something. i get giddy when i feel that someone cares, noticed or remembered. (well, doesn't everybody?)well, now that i've accepted this and told you, i feel better.

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people are not mind readers.

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in the long run, we can choose how we feel. (what is the mood of my life?)

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my parents' happiness is not my responsibility. nor is anybody's. each one is responsible for each one's happiness. i want my parents to be happy. i want them to be happy with each other. it's still up to them, though. i would be really happy when they do.

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i don't want to hate men.

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we don't compete with anyone. we only have ourselves to grow to potentiality.

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i struggle with myself at times, well, most of the times. but not so much anymore. i've learned not to think much anymore, though there would be times, i'd miss that "intellectual masturbation" as some would call it.

i'm still struggling with time. when i think about it, i feel that it's like a tissue paper roll used up oh so quickly. i'm struggling with how i splurge my time. well, it's not really a "struggle". i struggle with the fact that i don't "struggle" with my time. should i start being a time miser? hmm, not too extreme. just do what you're supposed to do when you're supposed to do it.

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life is meaningless when you don't add value to other people.

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forget regret or life is yours to miss - really.

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sleeping is lovely. dreaming in your sleep is lovelier - thanks Cortitrol!

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i like Chuckie milk chocolate. i also like soft-boiled egg. i usually cook one every breakfast, sometimes lunch or dinner.

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my affinity for alcohol has slightly decreased. maybe for beer. or maybe it has become too available. i'm not sure.

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this is fun.

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i have treasures i have neglected. i'm rediscovering them.
i have friends, and they're really good listeners. i would just have to give them a chance.

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we create our own fun. the grass is not greener on the other side except when you're from the other side, that just means your own grass is greener (compared to when you go to the other side).

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thoughts are dynamic. it's okay to change your mind. it's okay to change teams.

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just keep creating.

nothing more to think about.

love is not only mutual affection, recognition or understanding.
love is also commitment.
love is also discipline.

Integrity:
1. Make and keep commitments to yourself.
2. Stand for something.
3. Be open.

Intent:
1. Examine your motives.
2. Open your agenda.
3. Choose abundance.

Capabilities:
1. Run with your strengths (and with your purpose)
2. Keep yourself relevant.
3. Know where you're going.

Results:
1. Take responsibility for results (not just activities).
2. Expect to win.
3. Finish strong.

hindi kailangan maging boring.
hindi rin kailangan maging set o fixed.
tapon mo na yung worn-out expectations mo of how things would turn out.
just let God.
he would have created us gray if he was.
come out of yourselves.

"One lesson I learned from a good friend of mine is that you should never rely on others for your own happiness; if you want to do something that you think would make you happy then go ahead & do it she says. Grab the happiness you desire by the balls & go enjoy the moment."
-quote from an old blockmate

there are other worlds apart from my own.
other realities i'm recognizing, still uncovering
i'm catching a glimpse of the possibilities of life

it's humbling.
it's no longer just a projection of my own wonderings.
it's more than just the "other side" of my wanderings.

do you have worlds you're discovering too? can you tell me about it?

i'd like to know - really.
i won't judge. promise.
i'll try - really.

tell me. tell me.

what are your thoughts?
what's on your mind?
how do you live?
what do you say?
how do you say things?
what do you like?
what do you like to try?
can i try it too?

please?

wandering affections have slowly faded.
sometimes half-lucid though.
it's just the first time so i can't say yet.
it's like it's a part of me already.

there are many things in life that i want to grow into. many things about myself that i'd like to make better. though there are many things that i do like about myself already. many still are left for refinishing, refining, improving, creating.

who would've thought we had attitudes? conscious/subconscious? some things about ourselves we didn't knew we had until we had a goal? there's so many things to work on.

but you know what? i'm not frustrated anymore - though ocassionally, sometimes, about myself. slowly, i'm learning to enjoy the ride 'cause isn't this what it's gonna be until the next life? we'll keep growing. we'll keep experiencing growth pains along the way.

we don't grow into something and then stop. if that happens, we stop living. life goes on. and it's all part of it. laughters, joys, epiphanies, friendships, tenderness, brokenness, frustration, vulnerabilities, sadness, hate, anger, deception, and much more.

it will be naive to think that our goal should be a "stress-free", "challenge-free" life. problems will always be there - always. it's working yourself to be durable enough to patiently overcome and come out as triumphant to these challenges and stress as we pursue something we value.

productivity, that's what makes life worthwhile. it's the journey towards the destination. both. both. not just one.

keep sowing, keep growing, then you will reap. then keep sowing, keep growing, then you will reap.

rippling effect.
if i deal and have discipline in one area of my life, then i'd grow myself better for other areas as well.

let's start with FINANCES 'cause it's the easiest to measure.

i wanna start making a servant of money.

first, i wanna make more.
keep making more.
i know having more money is a lot better than having none or little.
it helps myself, and others.
it's a report card of how i'm doing, how many people's lives am i contributing to.

second, i wanna control how i use it.
i'm a spender.
emotional spender.
this is not good in the long run, i know.
temporarily, it may fill a certain need.
but afterwards, i still have to deal with certain things.

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all you need is within reach. thank God for books, for people, for Audio Books! I need grace. more grace!

it starts with what you want
what kind of lifestyle do you want to have?
the most successful people know exactly what they want to get out of this business. so they have their dream and believe in that dream.

john sexmith.
people are sold on the wrong stuff. the day-to-day get by.
what i do in my business is sell themselves back to their dream. everbody has a dream. they might have suppressed them, forgotten about it but it's our job to inspire people with their dreams.

this is just a rough draft of the video training part one.

drawing your attention to certain things brings them to focus.

anything you dwell on you will eventually manifest in your life.

whatever you focus on you will get, so focus wisely.

where i wanna be a year from now.

our dreams and goals do change.

in addition to knowing what you want, it's so important to know exactly why you want it. why accomplishing that is so important to you .

some people have not lined up their job, their career, with their passion, with their values.

what do you want your life to stand for?

they always say do what you enjoy. but what i enjoyed is snow skiing, basketball. i think what they should say is
do something that matches your values (than what you enjoy.) - blake

your passion has to come from your values.
you have to figure out what's important with your life.

what role will my business come in as i act on those values?

benefits, why values, purpose motivation

deep gut feeling. what dominates your thoughts and feelings.

what if you don't know what you want?
what you value?

give yourself plenty of time and plenty of paper and just start writing.

what do i enjoy doing? what makes me happy? what gives me real satisfaction? if i did know what i wanted, what would it be?

who seems to be living the life you want to live and start acting like those people.

decide who you want to be first then what you want have.
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we better start asking the right questions to ourselves.