i hardly write my thoughts anymore partly because i think i haven't had time anymore and partly because i think my grammar is sucking more as time passes by--as i lessen reading classics, that is. my mind isn't what it used to be anymore. it's evident on how i performed last sem: low grades and low grades because i'm not able to memorize stuffs easily as i used to before. now it takes me quite a lot of time before i digest whatever i am studying. or maybe because i'm losing focus meaning i'm more easily distracted than before. i don't know but i'm trying to understand. i've been doing some things for my brain to become as active as before because i need it to function well. im fixing papers for my application in med. God knows how much i want to be admitted in UST cos well, i had my pre-med here and it's kinda hard to be admitted here so it's quite a challenge and i need a Catholic school, else my spiritual life will vanish in an instant again and of course, my boyfriend's here. the last thing i need to worry about is his becoming gay again because it will have a very heavy impact in my emotions. i might not interact with people anymore cos i might conclude that everyone will leave me anyway.
anyway, it's the start of a new sem. my birthday passed by without so much depression. it was there but it wasn't as destructing as before. i had fun actually because i had been with him and he gave me white lisianthus and white star gazers in a vase and i liked it a lot, especially because they're white and the lillies smell heavenly. i also received a virginia woolf hardbound. before that day, he told me that my birthday's gonna be different because from now on, i had him to celebrate it with.
again, it's the start of a new sem. later at 4pm (which is my first class, haha), i'll be seeing my classmates again, not everyone, i think, because a lot failed in Comparative Anatomy of Vertebrate Embryology Lab (phew) or simply Embryo lab. it's a littlle saddening cos failing in another subject last sem, for a few of my classmates, would mean not taking UST med as an option anymore because students with 12+ units of fail will be strictly not admitted.
this sem, my major subject's gonna be Physiology and Ecology. 3 minors, ETAR, PGR and an SCL, whose course description i forgot. there's still glee club, and i think we're going to prepare for Himig Tomasino and my other org, whose gonna sing again for the Paskuhan Mass, yey. which means a lot of practices at night.
later at 12nn, im going to have a meeting with med's sc president because of a collaboration with them for our PreMed Talk and Tour. im way excited to be in med but for now, i need to go to our office and check if the executive vp of my org's foundation has said something about our opening of a blood bank acct here at the univ hospital.
